My Past and Present...

I was going to post about how I was feeling, but after reading my last post which ties in so much with how I'm feeling right now. I just TRUELY hate feeling this way...

YO YO YO!!

Dat seems to be my title for every post!! LoL. I havent been on here in the longest time.. BUT N E WAY life has been great as usual, even with not so happy times, its still great. I decided to get on here since I ddnt want to tweet some tweets. i WOULD say that I been feelin some type lately, emphasis on the word lately, but I feel this way everyday; unfortunately. I try to not acknowledge it, but i dont have a choice. Well enough of the small talk.. I kinda feel some type of way about someone, as I have for a while. I'm %100 that the way I feel is well known. I sometimes feel that there is possibly something there then again, I dont feel that there is anything there. But at the end of the day, I kind of realize that there isn't anything there at all; I evaluated and observed this recently. A lot of times I just bypass these feelings as if there not there. There comes a time when you need to keep trucking, but when you see tht person constantly its very hard to do. I recently had planned to discuss with them, but I ddnt get a chance; so I've decided that Im not going to bring it up at all. Now if that conversation comes about, I wont stop it, but me starting it up wont happen. i Truly hate these feelings; well im not going to say that i hate them i just would rather not have them... And a part of me wishes something could be there but at the same time, I dont want it to be either... UHHHHH!!!!! Man, I Be going thru it a lot of times, like REALLY going thru it. I just hope and pray there is a change coming because something's got to give... Idk, but I really do know. I kinda wish I could temporarily change places with people sometimes... Well, Im bout to get off of here and go hop on the keys and express my emotion thru my fingers... Ima try to go to the shop later on, havent been there all week. DEUCE LIKE JUICE!